This word gets tossed around a lot with UPG. You should make sure that what you are hearing is actually a god or actually something from the gods rather than something your brain cooked up on you. Sometimes this is easy to do. Sometimes the gong goes off and there has never been a more identifiable “other” moment than what you are experiencing RIGHT THIS INSTANT. Other times my experiences are much more subtle. I find that I have more problems figuring out if I am listening to my own mental chatter if I am dreaming. I’m beginning to think that when I am awoken by the dream, or by something that a player in the dream does that this is perhaps more likely to be a god interaction than otherwise.
The dream I am mulling over right now:
Upon waking it was clear to me that Loki was playing Snape for some reason. Perhaps because I’m an avid fan of the character, or because it is an easy face for him to pull from my brain. Or maybe it has something to do for my admiration of the cleverness and loyalty inherent in the character. I’m not sure.
Now, I’m trying to figure out for sure if this is something my brain stewed together because of some of the conversations I’ve been party to with some awesome friends who are Heathens (they are so much more than that, but simplicity wins here). I woke up, jolted out of sleep by the end of the dream, but it seemed very real and extremely lucid. I had control of my actions. I’m pretty sure that this wasn’t just a run of the mill dream.
What does it all mean?
I’ve never acknowledged Loki in a Kingly way, and then there are the implications of crowning him. I didn’t realize, exactly, that I was crowning him. Was he tricking me into recognizing him as my King? Not like, “Ha! I’ve got you!”, but muddling things in such a way that I am forced to see things in a new light?
And the Holly/Mistletoe aspect of the crown seems especially significant to me. They are both associated with winter and death to me, but also renewal. Winter is a deep sleep as opposed to true death. Perhaps I’ve acknowledged him as my King in a past life and I’m only reawakening to this now? Previously I’ve gotten feelings of being intimate friends, but never anything extremely loverly.
The crown was something simple and it transformed into something extraordinary. I’m also getting that transformation, roughing out the diamond from the coal, is part of this dream.
I have a feeling this is all going to get a longer ponder.
And then we come back around to discernment. I’m fairly sure this is the very first dream, dream of mine that Loki has taken the impetus to wander into. (As far as I know.) He has made himself at home in my daydreams and as my Muse, so I guess I shouldn’t actually be surprised by this progression.